{"id":273,"date":"2023-05-17T08:55:40","date_gmt":"2023-05-17T08:55:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/?p=273"},"modified":"2023-06-11T23:51:56","modified_gmt":"2023-06-11T23:51:56","slug":"im-fine-paintings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/?p=273","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m Fine \/ Paintings"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/IMG_20210514_200302_918-1024x722.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-274\" height=\"1024\" srcset=\"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/IMG_20210514_200302_918-1024x722.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/IMG_20210514_200302_918-300x212.jpg 300w, https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/IMG_20210514_200302_918-768x542.jpg 768w, https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/IMG_20210514_200302_918-1536x1083.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/05\/IMG_20210514_200302_918-2048x1444.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I have always loved this painting, disturbing as it is. Yet I threw it away shortly after it was made.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Perhaps I didn&#8217;t want to manifest further chaos. Perhaps I was perturbed by how my calm hands had so accurately portrayed my secret inner life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It&#8217;s what I said, always; &#8216;I&#8217;m fine.&#8217;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I am now. Or beginning to be. When I&#8217;m not, I remember this painting, how lonely it is to &#8216;be fine,&#8217; and I allow myself not to be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I have always loved this painting, disturbing as it is. Yet I threw it away shortly after it was made. Perhaps I didn&#8217;t want to manifest further chaos. Perhaps I was perturbed by how my calm hands had so accurately portrayed my secret inner life. It&#8217;s what I said, always; &#8216;I&#8217;m fine.&#8217; I am now. &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"read-more\"><a class=\"readmore-btn\" href=\"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/?p=273\">+<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">  Read More<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":350,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_vp_format_video_url":"","_vp_image_focal_point":[],"footnotes":""},"categories":[5,13],"tags":[26,30,31,32,29],"class_list":["post-273","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-blog-posts","category-paintings","tag-finding-a-new-path","tag-grief","tag-hope","tag-painting","tag-trauma"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/273","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=273"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/273\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":526,"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/273\/revisions\/526"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/350"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=273"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=273"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cherryblossomhouse.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=273"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}